We have all heard it. Usually, it means someone is fed up and they are drawing the line. That’s enough. There is to be no more of that.

I find “enough” to be a troubling word. In college, Sam Huntington and I were confused and amused by the instructions on the Plasti-Tac package that instructed us to “Always use more than enough Plasti-tac.” Shouldn’t “enough” by definition be exactly the right amount? Why should we use more? Clearly, the writer was demonstrating marketing genius, by instructing people to over-consume the product. Fast forward a couple of decades and I discover the fear of not doing enough can leave you chasing your tail, pursuing something elusive that you’re not meant to catch. And that’s especially true now.

Today, we get our report on the CT scan which will show us what kind of progress has been made in the first two rounds. And as a result, yesterday was a day that started with a fair amount of anxiety. Have we done enough?

How much nutrition change is enough? How much prayer is enough? How much disconnecting, meditation, deep breathing, tai chi, and reiki is enough? How much light exercise. How much laughter. Has it been “enough?” There is no single formula for trying to eradicate cancer. For some, they are all in on medical science and that’s enough for them. For others, it’s prayer and only prayer and that’s enough for them. Then there are those who take an integrative approach, incorporating additional practices as we have. But even then there are differences in what one might choose and to what degree. You can see how we could spend the day with our heads spinning, wondering, questioning. Has it been enough?

But we didn’t. After the workday ended, Kathleen and I went to the woods and took a long walk on the trails. It’s called a Forest Bath. (You can look it up.) And it came highly recommended by someone we trust who is coaching me through treatment. We listened to the birds, enjoyed the flowers, bees, and prairie grasses. We were eaten alive by mosquitos. We held hands and we laughed. It restored us to our just-for-today mindset.

And for yesterday it was enough.